Promises Are Meant To Be Broken

I really can't hold this inside my brain anymore...

Last two months, I had a promise myself that I will "stop" doing something that I really enjoyed doing. Why? Yes it's fun to do and I learned a lot from doing it. But I don't want to get addicted to doing it. It's really hard. Really. However, I'm still trying to hold on to my promise. 

But this gloomy/rainy season is really trying to bring the hell out of me. It gets more difficult this time, because I've always loved the rain. And one of the things I would love to do is to do it under the pouring rain. I don't know 'til when can I hold this. But I'm still trying. Let's see in the next days or weeks or months what'll happen next.

Good luck.